Just Arriving......

Last week I walked into church and my friend said, "you sorta left your blog with a cliff hanger."  Yes, indeed, I did.  We did that for a reason.  I didn't want to declare something and then have to pull it back if for any reason it didn't happen.  However, we now have a readied room, borrow sports equipment in the house, and today I went online and checked out some free summer reading programs.  All in preparation of our 10 year kiddo we are getting.

We had the privilege of taking Our Guy for a weekend respite (a foster child can not be out of a licensed foster for over 23 hours and if the parents need to be gone longer then that respite is provided by another licensed foster home).  He seemed to do well with Addilece so when we were asked if we would consider taking him after the school year answer we said yes.

The whole thing is a bit surreal.  It doesn't feel real that he is coming tomorrow.  It doesn't feel real that he will be here for lunch and every meal on out for a while.  It doesn't feel real that we will be dealing with everything that goes into raising a child in Junior High.  We know it is real though.  We are looking at sports for him to play and discussing pool passes, so it is very real.

Honestly, Tony and my emotions have been all over the place.  We have dealt with extreme sadness and grief as we face the reality of Our Guy's past.  We have been excited as we look at the possibility of putting him into football and taking him on vacation.  We have felt uneasiness as we discuss rules and guidelines that need to be in place for a child this old.  We have also felt confusion, joy, love.  I have a friend that I do playdates with in the same town he is currently living in, this has been overwhelming being so close but so far away.

More than anything we are praying.  Praying that God would open his heart to hear scripture and truth.  Praying that we can see past anger and bitterness and see the heart of this child.  Praying that we will glorify God above all else in our parenting.